I'm kinda frustrated with myself lately. It's like I'm disappointed with the way I'm performing. It's the feeling of "I do what I do not want to do". Barely a month before my certificate program ends and I'm getting lazy. This should not be. I think I'm such a loser.Hehe. Timingly, a classmate shared the "Loser" song of Switchfoot (see lyrics below).
I feel like an Israelite in terms of grumbling and rebellion.Hehe. Thank God for traffic jam. It is during traffic when God would made me realize things. My car is in number coding during Mondays and I have to wait till 7pm before I could go home. As I was approaching the downhill curve of Marcos Highway (it's the road fork where taking the left road will lead you to Marikina), an L300 van contested my position in the lane. I'm not really a risk-taker but that time I tried to fight for my position in the lane I was following to. I've never get that close with another car in my entire "driving" career.Hehe. But the L300 was really persistent and I think he would not yield. So I decided to give way for the L300 van. I felt mixed emotions -- anger, disappointment, etc. In short, I felt like a loser. Then I realized that God oftentimes asks us to yield and become a loser to Him. He is sovereign and the almighty one. He knows what's best for us. There are wishes and dreams that I am tightly holding to. There are times when I grumble and rebel when those wishes and dreams did not materialize. I have the feeling of "I don't deserve this" attitude.Haha. I'm such a fool. I'm such a forgetful person like the Israelites forgetting how the Lord their God had brought them out of Egypt. Be still and know He is God. :)
Loser
by Switchfoot
Only the losers win
they've got nothing to prove
They'll leave the world with nothing to lose
You can laugh at the weirdos now
Wait till wrongs are right
They'll be the ones with nothing to hide
'Cause I've been thinking, thinking
I've got a plan to lose it all
I've got a contract pending on eternity
If I haven't already given it away
I've got a plan to lose it all
I've been the burnout kid
I've been the idiot
I'll turn the other cheek to be hit
You can take what you want from me
Empty me till I'm depleted
I'll be around if I'm ever needed
I wrote this song for you
To show how I'm selling out
I'll take the benefit of a doubt
I feel like an Israelite in terms of grumbling and rebellion.Hehe. Thank God for traffic jam. It is during traffic when God would made me realize things. My car is in number coding during Mondays and I have to wait till 7pm before I could go home. As I was approaching the downhill curve of Marcos Highway (it's the road fork where taking the left road will lead you to Marikina), an L300 van contested my position in the lane. I'm not really a risk-taker but that time I tried to fight for my position in the lane I was following to. I've never get that close with another car in my entire "driving" career.Hehe. But the L300 was really persistent and I think he would not yield. So I decided to give way for the L300 van. I felt mixed emotions -- anger, disappointment, etc. In short, I felt like a loser. Then I realized that God oftentimes asks us to yield and become a loser to Him. He is sovereign and the almighty one. He knows what's best for us. There are wishes and dreams that I am tightly holding to. There are times when I grumble and rebel when those wishes and dreams did not materialize. I have the feeling of "I don't deserve this" attitude.Haha. I'm such a fool. I'm such a forgetful person like the Israelites forgetting how the Lord their God had brought them out of Egypt. Be still and know He is God. :)
Loser
by Switchfoot
Only the losers win
they've got nothing to prove
They'll leave the world with nothing to lose
You can laugh at the weirdos now
Wait till wrongs are right
They'll be the ones with nothing to hide
'Cause I've been thinking, thinking
I've got a plan to lose it all
I've got a contract pending on eternity
If I haven't already given it away
I've got a plan to lose it all
I've been the burnout kid
I've been the idiot
I'll turn the other cheek to be hit
You can take what you want from me
Empty me till I'm depleted
I'll be around if I'm ever needed
I wrote this song for you
To show how I'm selling out
I'll take the benefit of a doubt