The Space In Between Us

THE SPACE IN BETWEEN US
Building 429

Look at my heart again
Look at the mess I've got it in
I'm trying to trust in You
To know that you'll see me through
Through my pride
Through my shame
Into Your love
Into Your grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see Your face
And I'm running straight to You
Because

All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again

My life's like an open book
Nothing is hidden when you look
You break through my boundaries
Revealing my insecurities
But through my pride
And through my shame
You show me love
You show me grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see your face
And I'm running straight to you
Because

All I really want to do is to fall into

The emptiness that is

The space in-between us

To break this division

All I really want to do is to fall into

The emptiness that is

The space in-between us

Erase it and bring us together again

Here I am saying I need you
I know I need you
Here I am, I'm coming to meet you
Cause I want to see you

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I've been busy for the past weeks because of our final project. Long hours of lab work and finally it was over. Can't believe it was over. This song has been playing over my head these past few days. I think it's just my heart's desire lately to "break this division...erase it and bring us back together again". :)

Class is finally over. We're just completing some project documents for us to be cleared for graduation. Time flies so fast. I can't believe that 1 year had passed. God is so gracious. Our final project went well though I feel like the weakest link in the group (hehe!)... DB server and VPN concentrator don't like to cooperate. I remembered old worship songs in the course of doing this final project of ours. One song popped out from my mind when I was thinking why those computer services won't work even when we did all the recommended procedures... "I have made you too small in my eyes, O Lord, forgive me, And I have believed in a lie that you were unable to help me... But now, O Lord, I see my wrong, heal my heart and show yourself strong..." Mr. Google couldn't give much help anymore and I forgot that I have a big God who is almighty and sovereign. I haven't known Him as an IT expert but I know He made the stars and the skies, how can He not make our computers work? Thank God for giving us wisdom. I thank God for my hardworking groupmates and our group's counterpart in the other class. Our group was able to host their portal successfully. :) Then another song crossed my mind... "how can I say thanks for the things you have done for me, things so undeserved yet you give to prove your love for me, the voices of a million angels cannot express my gratitude, all that I am or ever hope to be I owe it all to you...to God be the glory!"

To describe this whole thing in one word -- "Amazing!" I'm glad we're done with the final project but well, I'm getting sad because it's time to say, "so long, farewell, I hate to say goodbye." (sounds like a "Sound of Music" song!hehe) :)

Need For Speed

Almost all students are having their summer vacation at this time of the year. We are just starting our final group project. Well, time flies so fast and my 1 year study will come to an end in less than 20 days. I used to have countdowns when I was in college but this time it seems that I don’t want to count how many days left before the classes end. We’re busy doing our respective group projects but at the back of my mind, I’m starting to get lonely. I will miss many things…the parking lot, manong guards, labs, classmates, teachers, Japanese experts, and many more. Just few more days before we say, “So long, farewell, I hate to say goodbye”. There’s a time for everything as the Bible said in Ecclesiastes.

Because many students are in vacation already, traffic jam is not so usual these days. Driving is easier than before. Anyhow, my mom commented that my car speed is getting faster and she’s quite worried. Hehe. I didn’t notice that I’m driving the car faster than before. Maybe it’s just because I’m quite used to driving already and the streets are not crowded with lots of cars so why take it slow, right. Hehe. I’m feeling there’s some kind of need for speed. And besides it’s what people want these days. We want speed… we want fastfood… we hate long queues…we like instant coffee, instant noodles, instant cash, instant transformation and a lot of “instants”. In this world where people want everything to be in an instant, we’re forgetting that this world is a time-bound planet. There’s a time for everything. God has His own timetable. Why am I saying all these things? I notice I’m quite in a hurry for nothing recently… waiting is such a wonderful process if we could only see its bright side. Most of the time I just want to get out of God’s waiting room. But I always fail to remember that this life is just a series of waiting rooms…once you get out from one, you’re entering another one. So no need to be in a hurry to get out from one, they are all waiting rooms anyway. Take time to look at things positively while staying in one waiting room. Appreciate the moment and take note of the lessons being taught. Anyway, God is seldom early but never late. He’s right on schedule even if we feel he is very late. Am I reminding myself? Hehe :)

“God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?” Numbers 23:19

By the way, I think go-kart racing is cool! :)

P.S. This “loser” idea can’t get off my mind. I made an acronym for a loser like me…
Leaving Oneself Securely Entrusted to the Redeemer! :)