Nasaan Kaya Ako

Sa tuwi-tuwina ako ay namamangha sa kadakilaan ng ating Maylikha. Ang karunungan nya ay hindi maabot ng aking isipan. Namamalas ko ang kanyang kadakilaan at katapatan sa akin araw-araw. Wala akong magawa kung hindi ang magpasalamat sa Kanya. Pero minsan kapag nakakaranas ng hindi masyadong maganda sa buhay, napapatanong ako ng "bakit ako pa?", napapaisip na hindi Sya patas at hindi yata karapatdapat ang mga nangyayari sa akin.

Pero sandali lang, sino ba ako para maging mapaghanap? Ano ba ang nagawa ko para maging karapatdapat? Naisip ko na hindi nga Sya patas, dahil ang isang katulad ko na rebelde at makasalanan ay kanyang minamahal at inaalagaan. Minamahal ang mga hindi karapatdapat? Anong klaseng pag-ibig nga naman ito! :)

Habang nasa ganitong estado ang aking isipan, bigla kong naalala ang koro ng isang lumang kantang Papuri...

Nasaan kaya ako, Hesus kung wala Ka
'Di ko na malaman kung saan ako pupunta
Maaaring nasa hangin pa ako
'Di alam kung saan tutungo*

*Nasaan Kaya Ako by Butch Charvet, Papuri 3 album


Saan nga kaya ako pupulutin kung wala Sya? *napaisip* :)

Doing Math

It is during my quiet time when I could think clearly and do my math correctly. You may ask why am I doing my math during my quiet time? Well, seeing and doing many things throughout the day could influence how I do my math.

For example, when I woke up and I sort of feeling lazy to go to work... wrong math: "I wish I didn't have to go to work today".
When I feel I don't like my breakfast... wrong math: "I wish I have another choice of food for breakfast".
When driving on the road and I saw a beautiful car... wrong math: "I wish I'm driving a new car".
When I encounter difficult people... wrong math: "Wish I could disappear now or wish he/she would disappear as in now na."

Ungrateful me. I should've been grateful for all the blessings and even for difficult situations and people (note: God just want me to grow!Ü). I'm learning to count my blessings and name them one by one (hehe sounds like a Sunday school song!). Well, here's my not-so-complete list...I'm thankful for my family, my friends, food I'm eating, clothes I wear, Escudo I'm driving, our house, my job, music, traffic, rain, orange shoes, iced tea, Rodic's Tapsilog&Tocilog, PAGASA, PHILVOLCS, FNRI, UPLB, UPITTC, FCS, UPCC, CCF, Nokia, Rusty Lopez, Acer, PLDT, Sony, and the list goes on... (this is a thank you list not a list of sponsors!heheÜ)

Now Playing

There are times when I just remember a certain line of a song. If my memory serves me well at that particular moment I would remember the complete lyrics of the song. Otherwise, Mr. Google is ever ready to help me find the missing lyrics. :) This song (specifically the chorus part) is currently playing over and over in my mind today. I've been trying to be more appreciative of things, people and even time lately. Can't help but say thank you to a God who continues to care for me through all these years. Every fiber of my being wants to shout "thank you, Jesus"! :)

When I Think About The Lord
(Hillsong version)

When I think about the Lord
How He saved me, how he raised me
How He filled me with the Holy Ghost
How He healed me to the uttermost

When I think about the Lord
How He picked me up and turned me around
How He set my feet, on solid ground

It makes me wanna shout;
"Hallelujah, thank you Jesus,
Lord you're worthy of all the glory
and all the honor, and all the praise!"


Click here for the mp3 of this song

The Promise

It was over a month now since I bought a product/service. I really have no great expectations on this product but there was a freebie sticker on the pack when I bought it. It was an aftersales freebie offer. Few days after I bought the product, I was able to do the condition indicated in the freebie sticker in order to claim the aftersales freebie but I wasn't able to get the freebie. I called the customer service hotline twice but the customer reps just kept on advising me to just wait for the freebie. Until now I haven't gotten that freebie. Oh well, the freebie thing is not really a big deal for me. I just thought that the old saying might be true: "promises are made to be broken".

In as much as we want to keep our promises, our words can't be 100% dependable since we don't have complete control over everything. It is only God who is sovereign, faithful and true to His word.

I'm really trying to be true to my words so if ever I still have unfulfilled promise/s made to you some time ago don't hesitate to drop a note, give me a call or send me a text message. By all means, I'll try to fulfill my promise. Promise! :)

God's Sense Of Timing

I'm still working on my patience test whenever I drive. Just this morning I was in the brink of getting hot-tempered because of a slow moving car I was following when I saw the bumper sticker of the car in front of the slow moving car. It says, "Lord give me patience NOW!". I just smiled and thought, "thanks for the reminder, God!"

On my way home, it was quite traffic. I was patient almost 90% of the journey but when I was along Felix Avenue I got quite impatient. I blew my car's horn quite often than usual and avoided every car that would cut in my lane. After all my "selfish" acts on the road, I noticed the bumper sticker on the taxi I was trailing. It says, "GIVE WAY, God loves a cheerful giver!". I smiled again and thought, "OK God, next time I'll try to be more giving on the road." Isn't God's timing perfect? He has a way of catching our attention. :)

The Cost Of Brotherhood/Sisterhood

I think my blood pressure went up when I was watching the segment about hazing in Jessica Soho's show last night. I was angry and I think I could cut into pieces those cruel people who were so mean in inflicting pain to their would-be brod or sis. I was thinking if I'm the only one who is so slow in understanding the rationale of this useless initiation rite. I can't really comprehend the reason behind it. Is hazing the only way to be accepted in a brotherhood/sisterhood?

Good thing God (the Master) doesn't have any policy like hazing in order for a person to be accepted in His family. Just a repentant heart and faith on His Only Son and you're in. Great! Isn't it a better offer?

I remember this verse when I was burning in anger and want to cut into pieces those cruel people: "Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord." - Romans 12:19 (KJV)

Afterthought: I just thought it wasn't that easy to belong in God's family. We should "die" as a penalty for our sins in order for us to be reconciled with God (Romans 6:23). However because of God's love... for God so loved us that He gave His only Son (Jesus) to be our substitute (John 3:16). I just imagined that Jesus accepted all the blows and pain that should've been for me. I thank God for loving me. :)

PBP GINF WMY

What in the world those letters mean? No, I haven't gone from Mars and learned a new language.hehe. Last Sunday, ushers in our church wore pin-buttons with printed letters of "PBP GINF WMY". Our pastor "decoded" the message of those letters. "Please Be Patient God Is Not Finish With Me Yet". We're learning more about love as God commanded. It's kinda easy to love the lovable people but it's a totally different story in loving the difficult and unlovable people. We are all "work in progress" until we meet our Creator and have our glorified bodies.

In applying the lesson I've learned last Sunday, I try to think that each vehicle in the road has its own PBP GINF WMY pin-buttons. Whenever I'm sensing that I'm getting annoyed or irritated because of a certain vehicle's behavior, I remind myself to be patient. 1 Thessalonians 5:14b flashing in my mind - "Be patient with everyone." :)

Striking line of our pastor: "Life is not about our happiness, our fulfillment...Life is not about us, it's all about God." I remember the book I read entitled "It's Not About Me" by Max Lucado. It talks about the shift we have to make in our lives, from living a self-centered life to a God-centered one. As the moon reflects the sun's light, we, Christians, should reflect the glory of God's Son. We should be Son-reflectors.

Caution: When you're getting annoyed or irritated because of me, please remember I'm also wearing that "PBP GINF WMY" pin-button. Please let me know also so I would take note. ;)